239. Who am I? Who are you?

The road to finding yourself is long and tiring.  It is a path that has not been taken before.  A path that no one has walked before because there has never been a "you" before.  Life has side effects.  You will be lonely at times this loneliness does not come from having no one around...it comes from not being able to say the things or show the things that are important to you.  It comes from holding values, beliefs and your truth which others find unacceptable.

We lose people to this loneliness..it becomes too hard because people will do whatever they can, no matter the cost in order to avoid their own soul.  When you are on this road to finding yourself, you will redefine yourself, over and over again.  You will learn that you are not what has happened to you, you are what you choose to become.  You will make mistakes.  You will jack up.  Accept that.  You will hurt people.  You will stain people.  This is important...you need to make mistakes because even if you know nothing at all...at least you know what things are not.  That is the power of mistakes.

Learn to develop a self reflecting attitude.  See that all things that occur, all the pain and anger we feel originates from us.  The most horrible thing about this is that many of you have seen and felt anger and irritation in others but continue to insist that you have not casted the first stone.  That you are without blame.  Think of any relationship break up you've been in.  It is tragic that we continue to feed and blame rather than reflect and accept that it starts in us.

I believe this is where emptiness and senselessness comes from.  A lack of direction, care for self and laziness to explore the inner world of our minds.  Accept you.  Accept your story.  See the world not just through thinking and logic, but through emotion and feeling.  Through an understanding of your emotional lens and the color it adds.

Bring yourself together.   Know that you have pain and darkness.  That you carry a dark side that must be accepted as openly as your light.  It is the collection and binding of wholes that makes us complete.  It is the conversation between our light and dark sides that matters.  Continued growth, pain and joy.

Learn to stand alone because the bigger the crowd...the less important an individual becomes.  The quieter they sound in the uproar of the many.

Keep breathing.