226. "I'm scurred"

Fear occurs when we begin to reach our line or bar that we have set.  It occurs because we remember something in our life where we failed, were checked very hard or were told that we are not good enough (either externally or internally).  It is the point where we accepted our limitation.  Where we fell back and said, "you're right...that's enough". 

And that, my readers, is BULLSHIT.  You have no limitation. 

Quick story.

When I was in Iraq, I was blown up a bit and had my knees broken and shoulder dislocated.  It hurt.  But what this did was influence the way I walk every day after that.  I would walk cautiously, I would walk with fear, I wouldn't work out, I wouldn't run, I wouldn't push.  Then one day while being cautious, I slipped and hurt them again.  Dammit.  Exactly what I didn't want. 

Over time, and due to bad cholesterol numbers :)  My doctor told me that I needed to work out.  I felt scared and fearful of my knees breaking again...of not being able to walk at all again.  But his reasoning was, the more you work out, the stronger you become and the better you'll be able to walk.

So I started working out again and pushing past fear.  I started heavy lifting...I starting running...I started getting back to it and started to change my mindset.  Sure my knees hurts...sure they ache and I am afraid at times...but the difference is that I don't let it own me.  I don't let fear keep me.  I choose to not let fear hold me...I choose to hold my fear.  I now choose to treat fear as something that I can see and hold in my hand or on my mantle...not as a shroud or blanket that covers me. 

I set my mind to "more" rather than "less".  I set it to "push" and "lean" rather than "stop" and "stunt".

Fear = Stunting.  Leaning = Growth


Your responsibility is to redefine fear.  Recheck and redraw your bars and lines.  Continually push your fear, lean towards, lean into, lean over.  Make it something that you can hold....not something that holds you. 

Dont use fear as a set of earbuds that you can only hear through...use fear as a loud speaker that you can speak through...