12. Latest addiction

Now I write this simply for the sake of a few people. This last weekend I had the Marine Corp and was running around, exercisiing a lot and basically burning energy like no other. Being absolutely tired, I decided that I was hungry...now I'm not able to leave the base once i'm there so my options for snacks were: pig's feet, some weird fish chips, these like...chicken feet things...and a slim jim. There were the only things available because I was bumming food off some of my marines...I KNOW WTF?!?! who has those things as snacks!?? haha. Anyways so I opted for the slim jim which in the end I really really enjoyed. I liked it so much that I went out and bought a case of them (50 count) and now that I have them as of today, I have eaten about 10 in a row...i'm feeling sick and not very happy with my choice...yes yes I know I should have spread it out..but dammit the first 8 were just so good that I had to keep eating....oh...not to mention following it with a nice cold Monster Assault Energy drink...all before 8 am! haha....soo bad....but now...i'm not feeling very kosher..maybe the lesson for today is learning moderation...

11. Meaning and happiness

With the success of my last blog I thought I would put something else on here...not sure if the same amount of reaction will occur but lets see....There is no mystery to happiness. Unhappy men and women are are all alike. Some wound they suffered long ago, some wish denied, some blow to the pride, some kindling...spark of love put out by scorn- or worse, indifference- cleaves to them, or they to it, and so they live each day within a shroud of yesterday. The happy wo/man does not look back, s/he doesn't look ahead, s/he lives in the present.The present can never deliver one thing: meaning. The ways of happiness and meaning are not the same. To find happiness, a wo/man need only live in the moment; s/he need only live for the moment. But if s/he wants meaning- his dreams, secrets, life- a wo/man must reinhabit his/her past, however dark and live for the future. Thus nature dangles happiness and meaning before us all, insisting only that we choose between them. Is there a balance? is there a common side of such extremes?...The intellectual, the inward soul, sensitive enough to see the spiritual world but not strong enough to bear the burdern it imposes. The reality of life sinking in and striking at the need of the material at hand...the need to live in the "real". The challenge is to do both: to hear the voices of the other world but live in this one...I think...

10. Women are Men's Inferior?

For those of you who KNOW ME and know who I am, you will NOT take offense to this. I am not a "woman hater" nor am I putting this up as my views about sex and gender. I am not sexist and I do truly believe, truly believe that in the end women are so much stronger than men...I simply intend to put it here as a topic of discussion and interest. I put it here because I wonder the OPINION of others and as a vent for myself.Motivation came from a woman who mentioned to me that I was ugly...straight out ugly...hahaha... and that it was lucky for me that I was decently smart....I was like..."WTF?!?!?!" I was told that they only way to get a woman was to "become rich and buy one!!!" haha...It started because the sister of the recently deceased asked me out and I said "I was taken." (this way for her not to ever do that again)....her reply was "is it because you think you're better than women?...well I'm hott and you're turning me down?...you should be begging me to go out with YOU." UGH!!! WHERE THE HELL DID YOU GET THAT FROM?!?...I'll confess the secret of women. Women are seen as men's inferiors. I know it is backward of me to say so, but to deny it is folly. All of mankind's riches, material and spiritual, are men's creations. Our towering cities, our science, art, and music-all built, discovered, painted, and composed by us men. Women know this. Women cannot help being overmastered and unrecognized by stronger men, and women cannot help resenting men for it. A women's love for a man is half animal passion and half hate. The more a woman loves a man, the more she hates him. If a man is worth having, he must be a woman's superior; if he is her superior, part of her must hate him. It is only in beauty (personality or physical, you choose) women surpass men, and it is therefore no wonder that women worship beauty above all else. That is why a woman is at her greatest peril in the presence of a beautiful man...If she is to be his and his only, she must respect him...she must learn from him and always know that she can grow. Women are amazing for that reason...they will give themselves to you whole heartedly and completely...if you are worthy of it.But then again, some women are just...well...ya know...B's!!! (as some of you girls can admit...as like some men are assholes to which we can admit as well)Now I realize that it is because we didn't allow women the opportunity to do these things and we have never had to give them the credit they deserve. Women are amazing and incredible, even more so than men, which is why I firmly believe in women's rights. But to tell someone that they are "butt ugly" and that they would never find anyone unless it was an encyclopedia (funny in fact) was just throwing. "you'll have to buy a woman..." ugh! I was thrown. Who was she to say that to me...to insult me when I was there to help HER family with the recent passing of her brother...such a thankless job.