152. Licking my wounds

I've had a few responses in regard to love and my latest posts. I thought I would take some time to devote to the recent broken heart.

I believe that ultimately when something "bad" is done to us we often will take two stances. The victim or the victor.

I believe that both exist. You must pay respect to the victim role and the feelings, pain and hardship that being dumped or hurt can bring you. You must respect the feelings of your heart being opened up and your wound being expose. We walk around with a wound from early life. This internal hole that truly does hurt. When we find a partner they fill that wound and for a while they help us see that the world doesn't really blow and that ultimately we are capable of being loved. Now we all know that we are capable of being loved...the difference is that when we find someone that we care for...we fill that hole with their essence...their life and their energy. Our wound begins to scab over...begins to close up and scar over.

When the person leaves it is the equivalent of an internal brazilian wax job...on your heart (wow, I went there). It stings and practically every sad song is a reflection of your feelings.

It is only in time that we are able to put a bandage over the wound that is left behind...that is when you are able to move on.

The victim you see is the one that feels this pain but instead of putting the bandage on is the one that uses this pain as a disease to infect others. They use the wound as an infection that they pass onto those around them...but mostly, the victim is the one who believes their wound will not be filled again. The victim believes that the only person in the ENTIRE world that can fill that wound is the one that they just lost.

This is the difference with the victor. The victor is willing to accept the pain of the wound...willing to hold the infection and is willing to expose it. IT SUCKS MIND YOU. But they know that every broken relationship, every lost love, every wound that is reopened leads them to a greater understanding of themselves and therefore closer to their life partner. You may lose your love right now...but know that every one you lose brings you ever closer to your soul's reflection in another.