You are big. You have Girth..no...you have fuckin weight. So why the hell do you keep forgetting that? Why do you let the little things push you around? Why do you keep letting the things that don't matter...suddenly matter?
Someone looking at you wrong, your car breaking down, your belief that bad luck follows you, your coworker that doesn't like you, your parents that don't understand you. It's all bullshit. Those things are just small cuts...pin pricks...and you are letting pin pricks bleed you out. Letting the small things dictate and drive your life. Letting them guide you.
Your life has movement and breathes heavy. It heaves. Makes noise. Heavy chested, you pump out an energy that affects people...a giant-ass gravitational pull that speaks and calls to life, and all those around you. Own it. Own it because it's true. Everyday that you have been alive has been a day that you touched someone. I guarantee it because you don't live in space and vacuum. I promise that you live in a world where someone loves you and that's what matters.
This is the difference between splinters and daggers. Splinters annoy and bother us. Small. The small things don't make us feel alive. The small things are sprinkles on ice cream...they add flare and fun but the real flavor comes from the big stuff...the stuff that matters. The small things don't make us feel alive because they're safe and easily added.
This is why to really feel alive...to really feel the movement it has to be as big as you. Love, growth, connection, meaning...these things are big. These things have their own pull and weight...a charge to them that should affect you and make you feel alive. Big ass tools and gifts that when you have them, everything changes. This is why when these big ass things collide with the force that you bring...a thunderous Sumo wrestler match over the last bowl of rice happens. Power occurs. A collision of such magnitude, of such strength, that when it happens it reverberates and sends out a tsunami...changing the face of the future. Yours. That's how big you are. That's the kind of weight you pull. That's the kind of life you are. Huge.
Remember that anything or anyone that does not bring you alive...is too small for you.
I can only talk from my own experience. It sounds simple to just say stop giving those pin pricks any importance. And it really is that simple, I have proved it to myself in the last 5 months. But when u don't or can't put yourself in that mindset. simple thing are very hard, and those pin pricks accumilate so much that they become knife slashes... So to anybody that is having a hard time realising that those pin pricks are all background noise I tell you this... When u find yourself getting beatdown by so many little things and u don't know how to handle it, breath!!! Actually make a countcious effort to breath deep, take 7 deep breaths and think of the good things in your life as you breath in through your nose... It really works, this little excersice has made such a huge difference in my life since I started doing it 5 months ago, and it can be done anywhere (this plus I started looking for more relaxing and reafirming things to do for myself) hope this helps, and I just wanted to give you guys something that has worked for me to realise pin pricks aint shit if you don't give them immportance.
ReplyDeleteMuch love,
The dumb jock
anything or anyone that does not bring you alive...is too small for you. i luv that psych.
ReplyDeleteoh and have you thoght bout makin' a meme? that would b a great 1
ReplyDeletewow. This one has to be one of myfavorites so far. keep it coming psych. keep it coming.
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