287. Alone

You will spend your whole life with them.  You will take advantage of them. Hurt them.  Beat them.  Ask them to take on far more than necessary.  You will be mean to them and brand them.  You will ignore everything that they really need and ask for.  You will demand more and more of them when they’ve given you all.  You will hold them to the highest of standards and will compare them to others, even when no one is around!  You will base who they are on the billboards of the freeway, the magazine covers and the television shows you watch.  You deprive them of sleep, overfeed them on crap food, fill their minds with news of everyone else and blame them for everything wrong in your life.  Some of you force drugs on them…illicit or jacked up opinion from others.  In fact, some of you kill them…figuratively and for a few, literally.  You will maim them and cut them deeper than they will ever know.  You will make them cry, scream, fall apart and hurt far greater than anyone else can. 

You are the one you will spend the most time with.  Ever.

You lie about you, make yourself out to be something that everyone else will like, force yourself to be seen as someone you may not be, because you are afraid of being you in front of others…of disappointing another for the sake of being true to yourself.  Can you live with that? Disappointing another in exchange for being you?  Not too often right?

Keep this in mind….

We all do this for the sake of being with other people.  We have the false belief that this is what we need to do in order to be accepted by the company of friends, family and those we love and want to be around.  We have to be what they want.  A false belief that we feel needs to be done in an attempt to keep company.  We do this to build ourselves up to try and be accepted and what we think they want in us. 

I’m not going to shove this all down your throats too much more...

You see the question I really want to point out is not whether you do this to keep the company you enjoy with others…

The question is if you can truly enjoy the company you keep in isolation.

Do you enjoy the company you have when no one else is around?

Can you sit in complete silence and isolation and enjoy the presence that you are?  Can you sit without distraction, television, book, radio or other and truly appreciate the person you are. 

Try it.  I dare you.